Dead.

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Drama

Do I know it, or do I know it..

I hate you.

Totalitarianism

Ciplak-ed off Wikipedia:

Totalitarianism (or totalitarian rule) is a political system where the state recognizes no limits to its authority and strives to regulate every aspect of public and private life wherever feasible.

In other words, you can't go take a dump without asking your governing body/person. Imagine the fun of living in a world where only one person's opinion matters. The public isn't allowed to take part in any political related activities.

And that is how it all starts..

Pn. Hari - You're a racist. Big whoop. Pn. Hari, we all know that already, so there's no need to cover it up yeah. Not that anybody minds, you're entitled to your own opinion as we all are, but there's no need to come barging into my life and calling me out for choosing her. That's just bad taste. Keep your already pointy nose out of my business please.

Pn. Aminahton - Queen of the last minute work, eyh? Why don't you learn to do stuff earlier, and not scold your students for all your mistakes. That way, maybe people won't hate you that much. Not that I hate you, but I don't like you either. Loosen up on the scolding, and get more organized or just shut the fuck up. It's the only way you'll lose the title "slave driver"

Ustazahs of SMKWM - Just stay the fuck away.

Pn. Roslina - The little Normala that never could. Or, the little bitch that tried over and over, but still failed. You try really really hard to be just like her. Bias, making a complete fool out of yourself, overall trying to stick your nose in places where they don't belong. For fucks sake, if I told you there's a bar of gold deep inside the boys toilet you'd actually stick your hand into every hole just looking for it. You sad little twat. And I bet if Normala ever get what she wants, you'll be her right hand fuckface, right?

Pn. Norjihan - Who died and made you queen of the fucking world? You little bitch, I'd have turned you upside down and shaken whats left of your brains out myself if not for the fact that you're so fat and heavy that I wouldn't be able to carry you. How the fuck did you even become the advising teacher for the dance team? You can't move 10 feet without wiping out one of earths natural resources. And calling me kurang ajar? Go back to kindergarten, and learn the real meaning of kurang ajar please. I stood up for what I believed, wait, what I knew was right, and you couldn't accept that, you spineless ass-kisser.

Pn. Normala - You really are the epitomy of bias and stupidity. You could use a little work in the ass-kissing section though, maybe look for your friend Norjihan and ask her to give you lessons. How the fuck does your mind work, you sick bitch? You want to be involved in everything, and not because you care about everything, but because you want the glory. You want the power, and the students give it to you, and so do the teachers you bully. Don't think nobody notices how you lumber around the staff room like a rhino, taking candy from the little babies. And your emcee skills. They fucking suck. As in. Fucking. SUCK. Thank god the principal has a brain large enough to keep you in your place, for now.

Afiz - You're the special mention here, the only person below 30 to hit this list. Con-fucking-gratulations. You should be proud of yourself. At only 15, you've already managed to piss off the most cool of cool heads. You're the great pretender, always the best at everything, isn't that right? You're good at studies, athletics, and you've also led a choir! That makes you the fucking king of the hill amirite? Think twice ass-wipe, nobody likes you. And when I say nobody I mean, nobody. You're just a whiny little bitch who sizes up by bringing other people down. You have no idea how much I wanted you to fall flat on your face. You were lucky enough to pull out of choir. Drama king, or rather, king of the drama kings. There's nothing much to say about you, except that you suck ass, and being gay would be good taste for you.

Jojo - Now, I don't know your real name, nor do I want to. I think keeping you named as Jojo is good enough. You don't even deserve a title there, seeing as you're already Penolong Pengarah Kementerian Penerangan. That makes me oh so fucking scared. You're like Afiz all grown up, barging in at the very fucking last minute and changes everything to your liking. Its your preference, not the preference of the public, the people attending the show, and you still want to change it. While you're at it, might as well shorten the concert and cut out cool shit like the recorder songs and the guy's song. All because you had a fight with a 16-year-old Chinese boy. And I'm glad as ever that I fought with you. It just proves what a piece of horse-shit you are. Its like you're unable to talk without trying to bring someone down. And when you didn't manage to do it with me you take it out on my choir guys. Smart. You're worthy of the title of "worlds biggest douche bag", and I think I'll hand that to you personally, when I get the chance. But I think Jiason is going to get you first, so I'll take whats left of you. Jojo, living proof that the government is fucked.

Lol

Its fun to be tired, cranky and pissed at the same time. You should try this concoction of emotions, it feels just like smashing a flaming brick onto your left ribs. Then when you're lying on the floor bleeding out your side like cats and dogs, praying that you won't kick it, that there's someone else on your side, you finally realize that you're all alone in life, and nobody cares, not even the big guy up in the sky. Oh just let me die here alone, not like you guys will notice right?

Things are better again with her. We talk, laugh a bit, hang out after school sometimes. Its just like the old times. Well, almost. But who am I to complain? I'm but half of the relationship. That's the thing with relationships. Both people have to be heading in the same direction for it to work. I guess I'm just too slow then :)

But I figure everything is going to be alright, so long as she doesn't know whats going on in my head. Some things are better left untold I've heard..

Alone

At home. I'm missing school too, not like anybody would notice. They're all either at UPM or Petrosains for some field trip. Me? I couldn't be bothered actually, going to school and not catching a glimpse of her makes all the less worthwhile.

Sometimes I wonder, was it the right thing to have told her so much? Maybe if I kept life a secret, away from her in a deep dark storage container, she would not be so upset? To the point that a little bird told me she doesn't talk much to her at home anymore. The torment in her, she tries to hide it but I can see it in her eyes, even though she won't look at me anymore. It makes me think about that faithful 29th of May, or even 4th of September. She could've been alone and free, or even better, she could be with another soul, happy that he is more caring than I, always there when she needs him. For I am not of the same world as she is..

Would life have been better for her had I not popped that question?

I guess..

I tried to put a smile on for today, after all, I was at another beings house. It was okay for awhile, but then she came. Everything went downhill after that. She didn't seem to want to converse with me today, I think maybe she was just shy. I pray it was just that actually, imagine if just didn't want to talk with me. But then again, she did shun me from walking her back, a short walk, but a walk nonetheless. It would've been nice to walk her back, even though the distance was not far, nor would the time have been long. I would've enjoyed the short moments in life with her, but they seem so far away from where I am.

Now I worry that she no longer feels for me the way she used to. Maybe its my fault.. It probably is.

I guess she's just not that into me anymore, if she ever was.. Oh well, time will tell.

Happy birthday Yazmeen.. and Harez

11th July, Yazmeen

12th July, Harez

You're both so old :D

Absence

There is a room over there. A room that's missing something. There is an absence in that room. The red paint has faded off the walls into a dull maroon, almost greyish in shade. What used to be warmth and joy is now just cold, the room is so cold it sends shivers down my spine. There is no furniture, nothing left of the past. As I stand in it, my mind empties as I lay to the floor and just stare at the damp ceiling.. An open window slams and opens against the wind. Perhaps that is how it got in?

Headaches

What am I to do, when in my heart emotions battle?

It will be a long hard battle, one that will rage my body to its very core.

I just hope that one emotion stays true, and prevails.

I'm tired when she talks. But then I'm tired when anyone talks now. I'm just tired I guess. Its a funny feeling, to feel 4 times your age. Sometimes I want to ignore her, just so I can get some rest, and forget about the world outside my own, ignored barren land. But when she looks at me, when she looks at me with her round, perfect eyes, filled with innocence and hope, I can do nothing but to accept her into my heart. She, who has done so much for me, I cannot forget her, and I never will.

What can I do to make her happy?

The Sands of Time

Alas, always changing relentlessly, moving here and there, never stopping once to rest. It is such the futility of ones efforts to control the sands. The Sands, one could say, is a sapient life form, capable of logical reasoning, and always using it to shift the balance of our lives. We cannot say our future, for our future is unknown, left only to the bending and willing of the Sands of Time..

Questions. The one thing that keeps our lives moving. Or rather, the one thing that keeps us alive. Questions. Provoking the minds of the young and bothering the minds of the elderly. Everyone will face the same battles, the same mountains, all that differentiates us is questions. To answer it this way, or that way, that is our own choice. And that will lead us to our fate. For the Sands of Time always contort us into a position of extreme discomfort, knowing what questions to pitch at us.

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I am sitting on a fence, and old fence. Old and worn torn, swaying to the winds command. I believe this fence will break anytime, dragging me to the floor with it. The pain would be rather intense. I could jump. Jump off this cliff that the fence is precariously positioned on. But why would I jump? What would I be jumping onto? What would I be jumping for? Or. Who would I jump for?

I look down at my feet. They look funny, dangling in the air, rather small compared to whats down there below me. The sea. One large body of water, or 2 hydrogen atoms 1 oxygen atom, if we'd like to get scientific about it. The name of this sea escapes me. For this is no ordinary sea. It is a sea of emotions, whirling together seamlessly, almost as if working towards the same goal. I look out on the horizon. A sea of blue and green awaits, calm and happy. The ultimatum of life, desired by all, but never attainable. Untouchable, unattainable, irretrievable, it all spells the same thing; nothing. I look closer to me. Red. Brown. Anger. Greed. Pain. Suffering. Hardship. Most of what I see is red. I now fear the worst for me, as soon enough the fence will drop down, plunging me into the waters that I fear.

But I see a familiar face out there, playing along the blue and green. It is but a girl, happily walking the shoreline of a small island in the middle of the blue. She looks up at me, straight in the eyes, and smiles. A smile that fills the crevices of my heart with warmth and happiness. I believe this is called love. We share our moment for awhile before she walks into the forest, avoiding my gaze. Thus, my heart again is filled by nothing but a desire, a desire to be with her. To sit on the shoreline with her every evening, watching the sun go down as we contemplate life, and the wonder that is the link that we share because of love.

But what if I just turn around and jump off the other way? I look behind me. Darkness. Emptiness. The void. A cold shiver creeps up my neck, I know what I fear most awaits me in the void. Solitude. Once a coward of being alone, always a coward of being alone. I turn back and face the ocean. The sun beats on my skin, sending warmth and I wonder; is this courage? Or is this just an illusion, the sun tempting me to jump.. I gaze again at the blue and green. Its far away, almost hidden by the raging red.

I close my eyes, and pray the choice I make is the right one. Then I.

13th June

I guess it makes life better, doesn't it?

A walk in the park, a walk around KL, a movie, what the heck.

A girl, by the name of Safiyyah Mohd Farid, yes :)

I love you Safiyyah :)

Lets learn numbers

That makes 4 times, Safiyyah. :)

The big fat rage filled emo post on how much life sucks and how easy it is to ruin relationships with people even my own girlfriend.

Exactly.

One month

Give me a break, I can blog whenever I feel like it.

Life

Life is peculiar.

One knows not his beggining, nor his ending.

One might even say life is but a long days imagination.

The many spectacles one experiences as he lives his life,

the surprises, the sadness, the sorrow.

The sense of belonging, crushed.

Yet one thing holds true.

The love. Or rather, the ove.

One person above the rest.

I ove you Yaya :)

Note: Your FB pic rocks, thus I stole it :)

Psychological Psychosematics

Wow, this is fun. Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	High
Schizoid Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Disorder:	High
Antisocial Disorder:	High
Borderline Disorder:	Moderate
Histrionic Disorder:	Moderate
Narcissistic Disorder:	High
Avoidant Disorder:	Very High
Dependent Disorder:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders --

My Top 5

More of a comparison of the things I do/have really.

My Top 5 Web Browsers:

1. Google Chrome

Given me the best performance so far in every single category. Clean, fast, simple.

2. Internet Explorer 8

Its good, good speed, have yet to test its download rate, the only problem I find with it is that it types slowly.

3. Mozilla Firefox 3

Must say I wasn't so happy with this one. It starts up slowly, and sometimes doesn't load webpages properly. But it works like a whistle most of the time.

4. Opera

One of the fastest speeds I've seen on a web browser. However, not very user-friendly and it always loads your last visited page.

5. Flock

A very socially oriented web browser. With auto-links to YouTube, Facebook, Flickr and the likes, I find this browser not so useful to me. Based off Mozilla source codes, thus has the same problems.

My Top 5 Drinks:

1. 100 Plus

Its 100-fuckin'-plus. It rawks.

2. Orange juice

Its tasty, it quenches your thirst, and its healthy. Only thing I'm not happy about is that I never get enough of it.

3. Cold water

Ahhhhhh. :)

4. 7-Up/Sprite/Miranda Orange/Kikapoo

Yes, a 3-way tie ladies and gentlemen! They all have a nice tang of citrus to them, and fizziness just rocks.

5. Limau Ais

Perfect for a long hard day of Kumon.

My Top 5 Foods:

1. Durian

Its the king of fruits. It sooo deserves to be up there *Glares at Safiyyah*.

2. Burger King Triple-Patty Black Pepper Burger

Every single word in there makes me drool.

3. Char Kuey Teow

Best Chinese food ever. EVER. EVERRRR.

4. My moms Fried Rice

<3

5. Chicken

The honorable mention in this section. :(

My Top 5 Snacks/Junkfoods:

1. Fries (McDonalds to be exact)

Too salty. Wayyy to salty. I love 'em.

2. Pringles (Sour Cream and Onion)

Preservatives will be the death of me.

3. Apples

The one and only healthy thing on this list. Sweet, juicy, crunchy and HUGE. Thats how I like my apples.

4. Twiggies

Hehehehehe. Vanilla.

5. Buns

Yes, buns, as in bread, with stuff in it. Cheese, Chicken-Pies, you name it. I eat it.

My Top 5 Things-I-Can't-Live-Without:

1. Sony Ericsson w350i

Not much of a phone, but songs, messages, and access to people is what I love.

2. Rubiks cubes, 2x2, 3x3, 4x4, 5x5

All sizes actually. After much debating, I decided that phone > cube. But the cube still rocks my socks!

3. My computer, the internet

Way better for communication/work/entertainment.

4. -

5. -

More coming soon.

She's back.

Just thought you should know :)

Lala Hashim

She's T-A-G-G-E-D me. :)
So this tag is for her, even though I don't know her well :P

7 Facts about me

# 1 - I am Tan Wei Xiat. Jonathan isn't my real name :) And no, just because I like people to call me Jonathan doesn't make me an illegal immigrant.

# 2 - I'm addicted to these little cubes. They're called Rubik's Cubes. And I'm working on the 5x5x5 now :D Its torture, it makes me think 200 times harder than I normally do all day, but its worth it ;)

# 3 - Thinking weird thoughts is what I do best. Its a natural talent I have, and I'm glad I have it. Makes up for all the boring teachers I put up with during school.

# 4 - I am a normal person. People treat me as though I'm smarter than them (wtf?) or faster, or just better in an overall sense. I don't see why the fuck you'd do that actually. If you take the time to analyze the situation, you'd find that I am in fact more lowly than the average person.

# 5 - I have a mega-super-wtf-imba-epic large ass :) Just thought I'd share this knowledge with you.

# 6 - Pessimism is my best friend. I appreciate his company. Yes, Pessismism is a MAN. No, I am not a sexist.

# 7 - There is one thing I treasure more than anything else. Or should I say, one person? :)

6 Unspectacular quirks

# 1 - For all the knowledge that I hold in my puny head, I have no idea what an unspectacular quirk is. I find this rather unspectacular.

# 2 - I openly wish for all Teen Disney Stars to die. I mean, common', what the fuck? Miley Cry-us, Jonas Threesome, TROY BOLTON and THAT BITCH HE'S WITH, they all deserve to die. Ruining everything Walt Disney worked towards. Disney is in a downward spiral, and its all because of Sam, Alex and Clover.

# 3 - I'm a racist.

# 4 - Not only am I racist, I tell people not to be racist. Hypocrisy is my middle name, look for it.

# 5 - I hate getting hair cuts. I don't like long hair, but I'm afraid of barbers :( And the salons with the freakishly ugly hair stylists are even worse

# 6 - When I go out to eat at fancy parties, I tend to end up not eating much. I'm allergic to chicken, duck and turkey. My excema makes me allergic to all shellfish, including prawns and crabs. My body cannot tolerate lots of oil, thus I stay away from extremely deep fried food. Oh well.

I'm fuckn' 1337.

If you're Asian you GOTTA take this quiz 

If you're not, envy the Asians...  

So, how 'Asian' are you?????  

[x] Both of your parents are from Asia [x] You were born in Asia 

[x] You use the term "Azn" - only online, it'd be stupid to use it in real life. 

[ ] You think DDR is cool 

[x] You've watched lots of anime - not very nice. 

[ ] You like Korean drama 

[ ] You have stuff hanging on your phone 

[ ] Your parents want you to marry within your own race 

[x]You eat rice almost everyday 

[ ] You drink lemon tea  

X's so far: 5  

[ ] You style your hair

[x] You have a bebo/myspace/friendster 

[x] You speak languages other than English fluently 

[ ] Your parents are strict compared to other REALLY asian parents 

[x] Your parents have high expectations of you 

[x] You always get A's/B's on your report 

[x] You do Chemistry/Biology/Physics/Accounting 

[x] You know your multiplication table 

[x] You play badminton or table tennis

[x] You've seen the asian version The ring/The grudge

X's so far: 13  

[x] You go/want to go to a university and would NEVER consider an apprenticeship 

[x] You own an asian car (Honda, Toyota, etc) 

[x] You're not the only child 

[X] You've gotten little red envelopes around February 

[X] You know the difference between kung fu, karate and tae kwon do 

[x] (If you're a girl)You prefer white guys over asian guys (If you're a guy) You prefer asian girls - :D 

[ ] Your mother tries to bargain even though the product is already discounted 

[x] You can do the rubiks cube - and the 4x4x4 

[x] You have a box of noodles somewhere in your house 

[x] You play computer games  

X's so far: 22  

[x] Every time you're going out your parents ask you where you're going and what time you'll be home 

[ ] You have karaoke at home

[ ] You know BOA/Gazette/Ayumi Hamasaki/Gackt - wtf? 

[x] You've been to a LAN more than 3 times 

[x] You have incense sticks/moth balls in your house 

[ ] You own a gaming console [x] You play a musical instrument 

[x] You don't wear shoes in your house 

[x] You can use chopsticks 

[x] You get nothing if you do well in school 

X's so far: 29  

[ ] Your parents won't let you go out if you have school the next day 

[ ] You have asian songs on your computer/iPod

[ ] You don't like football(soccer) 

[ ] You have a curfew  

[ ] You know what ulzzang/tb means 

[ ] You know what purikura is 

[ ] You like bubble tea 

[x] Your parents bought you shoes many sizes too big so you can "grow into it" and wear it for years to come - they HAVE to. 

[x] You've played final fantasy 

[ ] You believe in fortune cookies  

X's so far: 31  

[x] You know what bok choy is 

[x] You've heard the song "Got rice?" 

[ ] You have a tutor 

[ ] You've had pockys/yan yan before 

[x] When you seek for your mother's permission she replies "Ask your dad"  

X's so far: 34 

Your total x 2 

Result = 68% ASIAN !!

Speaking of Slumdog Millionaire..

Don't you think Salim has a striking resemblance to Michael Jackson?

Slum-Jon?

Yes, I actually went out to watch a movie. Shocking, isn't it?

Actually, I went out with my family to Midvalley for the Education Fair. Yes, I'm 16, in Form 5, and haven't completed my SPM yet. Who cares? Might as well get information now so I won't be clueless like Sam. :D

Nothing great over there to be honest, there was a few nice courses/programmes there. All it really did to me is strengthen my belief that I should study in the line of Maths and IT after taking my A-Levels. Also, one lecturer proved to me that my Chemistry is shabby :P I told him, "I'm not interested in Chemistry." to which he replied, "Oh, okay :D".

*yay* A small treat: 1901! Yes, it doesn't seem like much, but I thoroughly enjoy a good Chicago Beef :D

Went to the movies after that, we watched Slumdog Millionaire. Its a nice movie, not my type however. It concentrated on the real things in life, struggles a slumdog faced to get where he is today. Its a great movie, but too insightful for a person of my low caliber. I wouldve prefered something like Watchmen :P

After the movie we just went home, there isn't anything nice at Midvalley. I prefer KLCC for the massive fast-food selection. 

I saw Anisah online after that, wanted to ask how Saff is, but after all the formalities she had to go :( Oh well, I'll try again today.

I miss you.

Is this correct?

Seems like it is to me.

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

92

Again, just filling my time while she's away.

Do this and re-post it with the title:
I've done <> out of the 132 things.

Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
( ) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex 
(x) Drank Alcohol

SO FAR: 1

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Been Dumped
(x) Shoplifted
( ) Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 6

Level 4
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 9

Level 5
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 11

Level 6
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone BECAUSE of Facebook
( ) Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 13

Level 7
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers 
(x) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Sand Angel

SO FAR: 17

Level 8
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
(x) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 22

Level 9
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
( ) Gone Sledging
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game 
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 26

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
(x) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 28

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized 
(x) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood 

SO FAR: 32

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
(x) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 36

Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night 
(x) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR:38

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart 
( ) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 41

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud 
(x) Been Lost
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying (very subjective question)

SO FAR: 45

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers 
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers 
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 50

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made a Prank Phone Call
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR:53

Level 18
( ) Written A Letter To Santa Claus 
( ) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere

SO FAR:55

Level 19
(x) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Rollerblading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR:58

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
(x) Jumped Off A Bridge
( ) Swore at the teacher, in front of them
( ) Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR:60

Level 22
( ) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
(x) Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 63

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs 
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel 
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR:66

Level 24
(x) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been in a tree house
( ) Been scared to watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 69

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
(x) Visited Jail 

SO FAR: 71

Level 26
( ) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 74

Level 27
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
(x) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one (within a circle of friends, duhh)
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 78

Level 28
( ) Mooned/Flashed Someone
( ) Had Someone Moon/Flash You (luckily)
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
(x) French Braided Someone's Hair 
(x) Gone Skinny Dipping
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
(x) Tried to hurt yourself 

SO FAR: 83

Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
(x) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(x) Had A Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 87

Level 31
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone

SO FAR:91

Level 32
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
(x) Flattened someones tires
( ) Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas

Total : 92

Alive

Tagged by something. Figured this is something I can do to pass the time. I tag everyone else by the way.

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag as many friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Fantasy Girl - Caprice (definitely not)

2. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Unwell - Matchbox Twenty (true, in a way)

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Bleed it out - Linking Park  (cool, I like emos)

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Your call - Secondhand Serenade (lol, in a way)

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE PURPOSE?
My Love - Justin Timberlake ft T.I. (wow I'm a lover not a fighter)

6. WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?

Which Backstreet Boy is Gay - Weird Al Yankovic (rofl)

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Shake It - Metrostation (they think I'm a shaky person? which I am..)

8. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Stronger - Kanye West (=.=)

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
I Love You Anyway - Boyzone ( :] Safiyyah )

10. WHAT YOU ALWAYS DO DURING TAKE 5?
Say (All I Need) - One Republic

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
I Don't Care - Fall Out Boy (lies!)

12. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
I'm Yours - Jason Mraz (lolwut?)

13. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Breaking The Habit - Linkin Park (I have bad habits :P)

14. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Yakety Sax - Boots Randolph (youtube it up, its a very happy and jumpy song)

15. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Won't Go Home Without You - Maroon 5 (its my wedding, of course I won't)

16. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Tears In Heaven - Eric Clapton (wow I have some good shuffle luck)

17. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
The Device has Been Modified - Victims of Science (well, I like to play around with devices)

18. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Mockingbird - Eminem (metaphorically, maybe)

19. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Bakkwo - Lee Jung Hyun (yes, I have ONE Korean song)

20. WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
All We Are - One Republic (hmmm..)

21. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Wake Up Call - Maroon 5 (some are a little sleepy-looking :P)

22. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Alive - POD (I still am)

Day 1

Its like fasting, giving up something you really like for a period of time.

I'll probably only get to chat with her a few times a week.

I pray for a safe trip

I hope that she'll remember me when she gets back :P

But now, I just can't help but wonder.. Who's taking care of Pratunam?

Greatest Recipe Ever

The Recipe for Happiness

Ingredients:

The one you love

Lots of rain

Walking

Her hand

Her smile

Recipe:

Just mix it all up.

Malik sucks.

100 questions, here we go.
People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs
Tag 10 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
Continue this game by sending it to other people

I've tagged :
Anyone who reads this.

01. What have you been doing recently?
Chatting with Safiyyah :), lurking DA Forums

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
Once in a blue moon.

03. What had happened at 10.00 am today?
Its only 8.10 now :P

04. When did you last cry?
A few days ago - I ate some chili.

05. Believe in fate/destiny?
I believe that in the choices I make.

06. What do you want in your life right now?
A better computer and ISP. (no offense to my current comp, and shitmyx just sucks)

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains,or just put up your hood?
I walk bare-headed(?) - I don't own either.

08.What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
Mattress.

09. What bottom are you wearing now?
Green apek shorts.

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
"Thanks though" - Safiyyah

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
Your Elephant is Stupid.

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
I don't borrow clothes?

13. What was the last movie you caught?
On TV, Sleeping Beauty (yes I watch Disney Classics), in the Cinema/plex/whatever, Bolt.

14. What are you proud of?
My friends.

15. What does the oldest message in your inbox says?
"Yeah..." - Safiyyah  (I just cleared my inbox a few days ago)

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Regresa Mi :D *looks at Harez*

17. Do you have any nicknames?
Theres this one annoying girl in Form 3 that likes to call me "Jonat". I think thats it?

18. What does your last received text message say?
"Mcm skola biasa kot. Pkai bj skola haha" - Harez

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
12.30am.

20. Are you currently happy?
No, I'm not happy. Very very not happy. Its breakfast and theres no food in my house. *RAGE*

21. Who gives you best advice?
Bue Lim! :)

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Shhhh, my mom doesn't know.

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
Nobody.

24.Is anyone bugging you right now?
Nobody I think. In fact, I think its me bugging "anyone" :P

25.What/ Who was the last thing/ person to make you laugh?
Safiyyah usha panas.

26. Do you wear toe socks?
Lulz wtf, you mean those socks that make you look like you have frostbite? enno

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
Amira Razali *hehehe*

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
Many times, by the same girl :P OR MB NOT HURHURLULZ?

29. What annoys you most in a person?
The inability to say no *points at self*

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
Nope.

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
I'm a Meth guy.

32. What is the colour of your room?
Pale green.

33.Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
I'd use some of the money to hire a contract killer to do the dirty work for me. 

34. Do you believe in the saying of: talk is cheap?
Not when it comes from a certain girl.

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
No one sleeps on my bed. No one enters my room. EVER.

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
Can it be me hugging someone instead? *Safiyyah* :P 

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
'No one' saw the last person I kissed. I have kissed 'no one'. Paradox

38. Do you have a life?
Life is a characteristic of organisms that exhibit certain biological processes such as chemical reactions or other events that result in a transformation - Wikipedia. TELL ME you don't have this.

39. Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didn't die?
Yeh, me uncle. He didn't die, his bro did :P

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
I have a profile song?

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
Don't remember.

42. Last time you smiled?
I'm constantly smiling inside because of her.

43. Have you changed this year?
Durh hur

44. What are you listening to right now?
The sound of silence. Absolute silence.

45. Are you talking to someone while doing this?
No one is online at 8.30am

46. Do you walk with your eyes opened or closed?
I squint.

47. Is there a quote you live by?
Nope.

48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
I already have someone I can have and want to have.

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
Quite a few.

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?

Don't remember lulz.

51. What were you doing last night at 11 pm?
I'm not like Malik, cruelly pointing out grammatical errors in a tag. I was chatting with Safiyyah :D

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
More than happy.!

53. What song best describe your love life?
Jason Mraz - Lucky

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
Yes lol? xD

55. Who always makes you laugh?
Harez.

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
I speak 1337speak, and eat l33t-o's

57. Favourite website(s)?
blogger.com, forum.dota-allstars.com, yahoo.com, myspace.com, facebook.com

58. What's your middle name?
Errrr.. LOL in the name Tan Wei Xiat (Jonathan), wheres the middle?

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
The usual holiday routine. Computer, food, chatting, and I might add in some running around/driving.

60. What do you think you are like?
A penguin. I have a horrible desire to touch the sky, yet I'm stuck on the ground stumbling around like an idiot.

61. Who will you choose to die with?
When the time comes, you will know the answer.

62. Where have you been today?
Toilet, bedroom, kitchen, computer table.

63. What game do you play often?
DotA. But not very often now.

64. Who are you missing right now?
The Rising Tigers.

65. If you have to choose between friend and love,who will you choose?
I love my friend, and her name is Safiyyah.

66. What are you doing right now?
This. *unchanged from Malik* :D

67. Which primary school are you from?
PDS International School, Bandar Sri Begawan. SK Wangsa Melawati, Jalan Genting Klang.

68. Name 3 colours that you like.
Green. Orange. Extreme Red.

69. What emotion do you like to show?
:( covered up with a :D

70. What is your life to you?
A messy pool of events.

71. If you have something troubling you,what will you do?
I'll take a nap, then I'll wake up and spam forums like a complete jerk. Then I'll sms Safiyyah.

72 Who did you last chat with in msn today?
Nobody today.

73. Who do you admire most?
The man who can have his cake and eat it too.

74. Which month are you born in?
The "ninth" month.

75. How are you feeling right now?
Depressed.

76. What time now?
8.47am

77. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
Nerd :D

78. What colour did you use to dye hair?
Shampoo.

79. Why are you doing this test?
I hardly call this a test.

80. What do you do when you're moody?
Look for Safiyyah, she always makes me feel better :)

81. At which age you wish to get married?
The age of marriage that I will marry at.

82. Who is more important to you?
Obama or Clinton? Whats the subject of this question?

83. If today is the last day of your life,what will you do?
Eat escargot.

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
I trust a lot of people highly, among them Safiyyah, Harez and Jason.

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
Jon hate rainbow, Jon smash UU *Hulk*

86. If you were to have a dream come true,what would it be?
I'm a lil' too immature to be dreaming of  big things.

87. What is your goal for this year?
To make it past my SPM.

88. Do you believe in eternal love?
I believe that we have endless love inside of us.

89. What feeling do you love most?
The feeling you get deep down inside when you look into the eyes of the one you love.

90. Do you really think it's global warming now?
The windows and doors are all shut in my house, the aircon/fan is off, I feel just fine.

91. What feeling do you hate the most?
The feeling of drowning in sorrow.

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
I regret some more than I appreciate them.

93. Do you believe in God?
I believe God exists, I do not believe in his power to help all man kind.

94. Who cares for you most?
Hmm. Can't really say this one. Tied between my mom, dad and grandma. Hmm.

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
The ability to breathe.

96. What will you bring when you fight?
I don't like to throw punches. ><" 97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
I regret the choices I've made in life, but those choices made me who I am today.

98. What would you feel if no one cares for you anymore?
Like a weed in the ground; just get rid of me already.

99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
:(

100. How do you feel now?
Like I just answered 100 questions.