i, Chameleon

Chameleons have a special property within them. They can adapt to fit the color of their surroundings. Its like a second nature to them, in fact, its probably their first nature. But why? Why do they have this amazing ability? Is it because they have no natural way of warding of predators? I guess so. They change themselves to avoid danger, damage, being hurt.

Thats what I've been doing ever since I came back to Malaysia. The changes in situations around my environment cause me to learn how to create multiple masks to shield myself. So many masks to cover my ever changing emotions. But it resulted in one major drawback; I've forgotten who I really am. I was so afraid of hurting myself, I ended up creating multiple personalities to fit the situation, although right now I'm stuck on egoistical lying bastard. 

And not only have I forgotten my true self, in my quest to protect myself, I've hurt many others. More people than I can count. Even those dearest to me have not been spared. I used to blame the circumtance, but now I realise that its just me. Me bringing up the painful topics, me asking the stupid question, me to blame. And now its causing a dip in my performances, in all sections of life.

I know now what I've done wrong. I just don't know how to fix it. 

i, Chameleon.

Gay parties in Penang

Yes, Wei Kang, I'm looking at YOU. :P

3 days and 2 nights in Penang is nothing to shout about. Penang is a historical hell hole, filled with old buildings and funky landmarks. I did get to see the many jetties there though :D 

Jetties

Tan :D

Chew

Lee

Lim

Ong

Mixed Surname LOL WTF

The most disappointing thing I met in Penang was. The. CHAR KUEY TEOW. The CKT in Gurney is so horrible, I almost cried. Not to mention my experience there was only made worse thanks to some idiot not wanting to take his bag of a chair so I could sit down. Gurney Walk was so full and that middle aged man didn't have the sense to give up a chair no one was sitting on. I hope he dies in a fire. After being gang raped by clowns high on ecstacy.

-Defense of the Ancients-

RAWR, missed out on seeing Xiang and Dylan T_T. I did get to see Wei Kang though, hence the title of todays post :D I'm never playing in your house again. Stupid fucking huge 27 inch monitors. -__- Only gave me headaches :P

The best thing I did in Penang tops

I had the most mushy sms conversations ever with Safiyyah *blush* =]

*Insert random I love you Safiyyah* I love you Safiyyah :)

Summary

Pros

+ Smsing Saff

+ WK's house

+ Jetties

Cons

- Char Kuey Teow

- A few stupid Penangites

- Didn't get to meet up with the guys

Divine Bovinity

Mad love for the cows. After all, it is the year of the cow. :P

Okay, so its actually year of the Ox, but cow is close enough. They both go moo, have funny tongues, and provide people with food(hello vegetarians, I'm Mr.Carnivore :D)

Maybe it'll be a good year for me. :)

15 Flower Pots.. of DOOM

RULES: Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird habits/things/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs!

1. I'm very OCD about my food. I always must get the first bite, sip etc.

2. I love to pretend to be angry ;)

3. You will never ever find me willingly gaining knowledge from school books.

4. I trust too easily.

5. I still get headaches everyday in the same exact spot on my head :P

6. My ego is the size of all Jupiters moons combined. Just because I'm better than you :rofl:

7. I am the king of stereotyping, even though I don't admit it.

8. Having an IQ of 150 has given me massive insecurity about myself.

9. I have cool friends :)

10. I lie to almost everyone, everyday.

11. I've SERIOUSLY always wanted to jump off the pinnacle of KLCC because I've always wanted to know what the rush of wind hitting your face feels like.

12. I'm allergic to chicken.

13. I secretly just want to sit down on a park bench with her, hold her hand, and just forget the world.

14. At the time of this writing, I am 16 years, 2 months, 21 days, 23 hours and 6 minutes old.

15. Malik is my bitch Edit - Okay, so he's not my bitch.

15a. My right foot has developed scales. Lol. Not joking.

- I'm tagging every single person who reads this, screw the rules.

You're mean,

she says while trying to teach me some music stuff. God knows I can't resist teasing her. But deep inside, she knows I'm just playing around, she knows my heart aches for her every second of the day. Deep inside, she knows I love her :)

Safiyyah. A beautiful name. An even more beautiful face. And she is the most beautiful person I've ever met. Its hard to believe I didn't notice her in my younger days, but then again I barely took notice of anyone those days. I'm just glad I managed to wake up before it's too late.

Safiyyah. She makes me smile. She makes me laugh. Every single second spent with her is better than 100 years in heaven. And I only say heaven because I can't think of anything nicer :P.. 

I love everything about Safiyyah, her smile, her voice, her laugh, her funny walk. She'll make the whole world melt away, leaving just me and her. Imagine just sitting there, anywhere, chatting with someone you truly love and would do anything for. It doesn't matter that we both have our shortcomings xD, we love each other just as if we were perfect.

I was actually going to wait till Valentines to post something, but I couldn't keep it in anymore. That tantalizing smile, and that cute voice is just too much for me. So if you're reading this Safiyyah, I love you lots, and you know it :)

Safiyyah Mohd Farid, the best thing that ever happened to me.

Safiyyah, I know you're reading this.

YOU EAT ASPARAGUS WTF ZOMG

ASPARAGUS LOVER!!!! *shocked face*

...

*goes emo in a corner*

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Laaaalaaalaaa

Love you Safiyyah :)

Dreams just aren't enough

Straight off the silver screen. This, ladies and gentlemen, is the truth. And there is absolutely no shit you can do to ignore it.

Reality just bit my ass. I hope it bites yours as well, over and over again.

Life is like a pipe

If you think about it, life really does feel like a bunch of pipes, and we're just the water flowing within.

You can either go forwards, or go backwards. To or fro. Jalan or gostan. And I've never heard of a single drop of water flowing backwards against the current. You're forced to move onwards in the pipe, as you are in life. Most people don't cope with this fact though, they try to go backwards in the pipe, backwards in life only to realise after 20 years all their toiling has been in vain.

There is no diversity of movement withing a single pipe, its like a colony of grey blobs, just moving in uniform because we don't know any better. How many of us have been forcefully walked down a path we'd rather not, only to regret that persons decision on us. Think about it, how many times have you wanted to do something just because you wanted to only to end up doing something else that you hate because of another party? Orders, bosses, peer pressure, they fuck you up. They fuck us all up.

Have you ever wondered if a pipe can end? Can it reach a point where there no longer is a path for water? And if it can, what happens to the water? My guess is the water just stays there, kept in the dark, not moving, not knowing whats going on, while slowly making way for rotten bacteria and microorganisms. In life, do we ever reach a same apocolypse? Is it predetermined by the gods, or is it a result of our own stupidity? Will we ever make a choice so bad it will result in us living a non-life?.. Only time will tell, and pray that time loves your ass.

The pipe system of life. Live with it, or die away.

I love her

even more than yesterday :)

I'm Yours

Name : Tan Wei Xiat (Jonathan)

Age/Birthday :16, Nov 2nd 1992

School : SMK Wangsa Melawati > Aminuddin Baki

Elder sister : Tan Hwey Vern (Samantha)

Younger sisters : Tan Jin Vern (Nicole)

Elder brother : None

Younger brothers : None

Favourite liquid's/ drinks : Orange juice, Mango juice, 100 Plus

Favourite consumables/ food : Anything good

Favourite place to sleep : The floor of my living room

Flying? : No.

Swimming or diving : Diving 

How many friends in msn : 100+++

Loved one's : Family, Safiyyah

Get kicked on the butt : Every Saturday

Allergic? : Chicken, Duck, Turkey.. Poultry in general. Also allergic to stupid people, I rash up everytime I set my ass down  next to you

Gastric? : Nope

Age of marriage? : Older than 18 :D

Children wanted?: As many as I will have.

Age of death? : Anytime after I do everything I want

Animals in your house? : 2 sisters

Longest fingernails ever kept? : 2.5 cm each

Wanted birthday present : Honestly, a nice day out with someone :)

Q : In your dreams, god makes you a billionaire and grants you a wish, what will you wish for?
I'm a billionaire, I'd use that wish for world peace :P Nawwh, I'd wish for natural resources to be expandable and the ozone layer to be unaffected by pollution.

A - Attached or single ? : Attached? Sounds pretty clingy though

B - Best friend? : Every single mamat and amoi in 5 Zuhal! And a few from Uranus :P

C - Cake or pie ? : The cake is a lie

D - Day of choice? : Thursday = No BM on that day.

E - Essential item ? : My pen.

F - Favourite colour? : Palish green

G - Gummy bears or worms? : Neither. -puke-

H - Hometown? : K.Lumpur :D

I - Favourite indulgence : Apples. 

J - January or July? : January.

K - Kids? : Yes, I am a kid.

L - Life isn't complete without?: The feeling of wholeness one gets from knowing what he does is right.

M - Marriage date : Its a movie right? :P

N - Number of magazine subscriptions? - 1 + 1 - 2 = 0

O - Oranges or apples? : Look above.

P - Phobias : Don't get me started :D

Q - Quotes? :
"Believe, and the truth shall set you free!"

"You gotta put feeling into it. My friend said 'fuck, dude' with a feeling. He said 'ph-uuuuuu-ck, dude'."

R - Reasons to smile? : Walking her out, and waiting for her to go home :) Its undescribable

S - Season of choice:) : Autumn.

T - Tag 10 people:) : Random people out there, you know what to do now.

U - Unknown fact about me? : I injured my brain once so now I get headaches everyday.

V - Vegetable? : Yes please.

W - Worst habit? : Forgetting

X - X-men? : I love you sexy Jean

Y - Your favourite food : Nasi Goreng

Z - Zodiac sign : Scorpio

Co-Curiculum

or as I lovingly call it, koko.

"Every Saturday, 8.30-12.00, get yours today!"

Its amazing how people set you up just because you're in Form 5. I am now the president of the Taekwondo club and Music club, P.K.Pengawas, Head E.C. Prefect, Saxaphone player, Debater, Public Speaker, AND one of the kids unlucky enough to be chosen by the principal to "get" straight A's in the SPM.

Fuck that.

A lot of my friends have been given tough assignments lol. I guess its all for the better considering this is our last year in SMKWM..*Epiphany* LOLWTF, I won't be in high school next year! Its going to be one tough task to keep up with everything my friends are doing. T.T

Pfft, back to kokoworld. 

Harez : vice president for Silat

Faaiz : president for Silat lulz imba.

Rupinni : vice president for music

Yen Yoong : vice president for Taekwondo

Sher Nee : president for PBSM - which coincidentally has over 200 members coughlazyassescough :P

Jason: president of the Badminton Association

Rupinni: vice president of the Music club.

It pretty much confirms that Form 5 students have and always will rule over the school. Screw you Nadzmi. :)

School: Day 1

Pretty much the same as all days. 'Cept this was different :P

Starting with the Monday assembly, it was rather smooth, but I was pretty pissed that 7 prefects decided to skip today. -__-  Nadzmi had a good ikrar this time, near perfect. And the discipline of the students was really good overall today :D. Didn't listen to Pn Che Aini when she was membebel-ing up on stage again.

Bad news: Pn Hanitta is no longer the prefect advisor!! T_T This is an imba loss to us.. Hope Pn Fauziah can fill her shoes!! We'll need the support.

Rofl moment of the day: Nadzmi si KP gave a small speech/warning to the prefects at the end of the meeting. It was a freakin' godfather speech. "Respect" with the works, and he even had a godfather tone and accent(wtfness). All he needed was a rose to be complete.

Early in the morning I'm already walking around with Safiyyah; I needed the prefect key to open the door to the prefect room. Left something inside for 2 months xP And this is a rant: WTF, Uranus and Musytari have classes on the 1st floor while Zuhal is stuck on the 3rd again.. At least I don't have to see my bini Mira too much now :D

Goals

1. Walk into class like you own the school: Check

2. Sit NOT next to Jason: Fail

3. Have a nice class teacher: FAIL.

We got Lilinoor. WTF dude, she doesn't even teach me, freakin' sleepy Biology teacher. Mehh whatever, so what if she teachers 85% of the class, the 7 students she doesn't teach aren't happy bout this. I missed out on getting SPBT books because I haven't returned some books *Ladeedaa*

Recess was a breeze, no trouble from the students save a few idiots :D After that I walked into class just before Pn Hanim came in for English (I'm safe!).. Blablabla, day goes on.

Shocker: I was almost picked for English Drama. Can I strangle someone yet? Luckily they went for Ashgar instead. -__-

*Insert worship-Wei Shuang speech here from Pn Hazizah*

Oh yes the bell rang! I walked with Safiyyah(Like always :D) to the prefect room and she dropped off some stuff.. 

WTF news: Safiyyah bought me a 5x5x5 Rubiks cube from Singapore. Seriously WTF. Also quite a lot of funky Jon-blush moments from me. Well, it was really sweet of her to do so =D You can see why I love this girl :D Now I just need to get her something. For Valentines. Or her birthday. Either way, I must. Lulz

I didn't get to say goodbye to her because I went back in to the school to send some work to Pn Hanim, and during that time she went home T.T Oh well, tomorrow is another day

-Teh Endz0rs-

School.

Darn thing made me lose my hair. :D